Two Month Old

I have not posted much because there is not much going on with us. 

Colin is doing great.  He had his two month check-up last night.  He is now two feet long and 12 pounds - he got his first set of shots and he is a bit cranky today but not too bad.

His head is a bit flat on the one side so I have to do more tummy time with him - he has tummy time so I do not do it alot and I know I should.  So today - he did tummy time and fell asleep for about an hour.

I am doing okay - I do have a cold and Colin is a bit stuffy as well.  I like staying home with him but it is pretty lonely - I wish I could find some moms in the area - it seems like alot of moms work and not many stay home.

I have had no desire to start dieting to lose this extra baby weight - it is so easy to just grab food and go.  I have to admit I am still eating like I did when I was pregnant.  I have to stop that.

I gained 32 pounds with Colin.  I was 160 pounds when I gave birth - I am now 140 pounds - I want to try not only to get down to my pre pregnancy weight of 128 but even lower at 125 - now I just need the motivation to do it.

I did get my hair cut and colored which I was very much looking forward to but sadly it did not turn out the way that I had hoped.

Here is a two month picture of my little man - he is getting so big.  He laughs and cooes at me - it is great - oh and for the most part he is sleeping through the night - I am one lucky mama!!

Colin and the Easter Bunny

Things are going well

I am so happy - Colin is a great baby - he only wakes up once a night - for the most part he is a happy baby.  He is already two months old and 13 pounds - he has his two month check up next Monday where he will get his first shots.

John and I are closer than ever.  I am so happy the weather has been great here.  I am hoping to set up Colin's christening for the end of May.

I love being home with him - I do hope to find a mommy group though - it does get kinda lonely - but it is amazing how quickly the days go.

I have yet to do the deed with the hubby - I am so scared.  I have to start a diet - I need to lose 12 pounds still to get back to my pre pregnancy weight - but I feel like my body is forever changed - I am nervous I am never going to fit in any of my jeans again.

Oh has our life changed - this year instead of going to our friend's bar for St. Patty's day - we hung out up at their house - here are some pictures from that day.

Whine

I am feeling some type of way today - As you know - I had my son 6 weeks ago - and my SIL - DH's sister just had her son on Tuesday - well I got so much love from all my friends and all the ladies who read my blog and all the ladies on the boards - but not so much from DH's family and ever since SIL baby was born - all of DH's aunts and cousins have been reposting pictures of her baby and posting statues saying there is a new member of the family, etc. on facebook - none of them did that when my son was born and he is part of the family too - and I feel hurt - even DH's immediate family is posting all kinds of pictures of her baby - including my MIL and SIL's - no one in DH's immediate family has even taken pictures of my son - it is not right in my opinion and I feel like my son is always going to get the short end of the stick - especially since him and his new cousin are only six weeks apart.


I know this is pety but it is my blog and I am going to say it - the thing is it goes back to the infertility - John and I tried so very hard for this child - we spend so much money and went through so much to get him and he is truly a mircale - and she just got pregnant and was not even trying - nothing saying that every child is not a mircale - I am just feeling some type of way - after everything we have been through - for my child to be pushed aside and outshined already just makes me sad.  The harder part is as most of you know I do not have any family - so if DH's family is going to always play favorites then that is totally not fair to my child.

I have to say I am not happy at all that the babies are only 6 weeks apart - and what I feared has happened and I have a feeling it is going to be like this for the rest of their lives.