On Bedrest

So my last RE appointment did not go so well and it is not my last now. Remember a couple of weeks ago I was bleeding. Well they noted last week where the blood was coming from and this week the blood mass grew. I am not really sure what is going on - because the nurse acted like nothing was wrong - everything looks good with the baby - the heart is beating and he or she is growing and we even got to see the bean's hands and legs today - the bean is starting to look like a real baby now. But the doctor said that I have to be on bedrest and I have to come back to the RE office on Thursday to see if the mass is growing. I have had no bleeding since that one time a couple of weeks ago but they said I may start bleeding again. I was in such shock that I did not even ask any questions. I have a list now to ask him on Thursday. I am pretty nervous now. I just pray everything will be okay.

Not my last RE appointment after all.

I called the RE last week because I was concerned about the whole new due date thing. He said that everything looked good and to keep my July 29, 2010 due date. But that since my first OB appointment was two weeks away that he wanted to see me one last time next week. So I have an appointment on Tuesday and I get to see my little bean again.

I had a wonderful Christmas with my family. John got me a video camera - which is going to come in so handy once the little one is here. He also got me diamond earrings. My brother and his wife bought me a baby doppler which I cannot wait to use. It was so much fun spending time with my nieces.

Here is my newest pregnancy picture - big bloat belly. I cannot believe I am 9 weeks already!!

Last RE appointment today

Everything looks great with the little bean. The baby is getting so big - and the heart was beating away - I was so happy I could not stop crying tears of joy - the bean is looking more like a baby now too. The nurse said she could see where my bleeding was coming from last week and it was at the top of my uterus and that she does not think it will happen again - which is good to hear.

They measured the baby and said my due date was August 2, 2010 - which is odd being that my original due date they gave me was July 29, 2010 and I did IVF so that due date should be pretty accurate and not have changed - I am a little concerned that I am measuring behind. My RE was not there this morning - so I left a message for him - I just want to make sure everything is okay with the bean.

My brother and his family will be here this evening - I am so excited to see them. John and I stayed up late last night getting everything ready for them and John will go to the food store after work today so we are stocked up on food.

One good thing about the 2 feet of snow we got this past weekend is that my nieces now get to play in it tomorrow - they never have snow like this where they live. They are going to love it - my camera is going to be out non stop.

My first OP appointment is January 8th. This is all starting to feel real now.

I feel better today

I was able to finish my Christmas shopping last night and John went to the food store so we have food. Yes my house is still a mess but who cares. We are having a pretty big snow storm this weekend so that means that I do not have to go to the pollyanna I was so worried about - but that also means John will be out most of the weekend plowing. I am going to give the neighbor kids money to shovel my walk - I cannot do it. But that means I can stay home and wrap all the presents and try to get the house ready for my brother's arrival.

I am truly blessed this year. I am finally pregnant - I have a growing little baby inside of me which is crazy wonderful and my brother is coming to see me - I have my family home for Christmas. I have alot to be thankful for.

John family offered to help with making the Christmas dinner and I got the ham last night at the food store. It will all work out - I may not have the cleanest house and there may still be a hole in my kitchen ceiling but it will all work out.

I am just going to try and focus on the good things and take this weekend to relax and get some chores done.

I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend.

8 Weeks Today

Warning: This is a total complaining post

I am totally cranky today. I am pissed about Christmas. There is still like 50 things to do and I have no desire to do any of them - we have not put up our tree yet or decorated it and I do not want to - the ceiling in the kitchen is still a mess from the roof leak we had last week. I am not done my shopping and it looks like at this point it may not get done. I am not even close to being done wrapping the gifts - is it bad to give people unwrapped gifts?? We have a pollyanna to go to on Sat. night and I really do not want to go - but I think my hubby will be upset if I do not go because it is for his family and I missed last years. I wanted to cancel the Christmas party I was going to have at my house but hubby will not let me - he said he would do everything for it. He has been helping out alot - he is going food shopping - he got the tree and is doing the dishes and washing the clothes. It is just that I have no desire to do anything. I am so tired all of the time and now I am so scared to do to much - I am scared I will bleed again - I figured it I can work all day long that is enough for me - but at Christmastime it is just not enough. Plus I have not even dealt with the fact that my brother his wife and two toddler children are coming in next week and staying for 6 days in my tiny house. I just want the next two weeks to be over and done with.

Bleeding Scare

I had a bleeding scare on Sunday night - it was horrible - I thought I was losing the baby - it started on Sunday night around 10 pm - it was bright red blood - I cried all night long and did not sleep a wink - by morning it had turned to brown blood but was still coming - I called out of work and as soon as my RE office open I called them and they said to come right in - I rush over there and they did an ultrasound and everything looked good with the baby - the baby was measuring normal and the heart was beating. They do not know why I was bleeding but they said I need to take it easy from now on and rest as much as possible. Which is not going to be easy this time of year but my husband is basically going to take everything over. The household chores - finishing the shopping - hosting the Christmas party and making sure my brother and his family are entertained and comfortable. The RE said I had to stay in bed until the bleeding stopped - it stopped around 6 pm last night - I took off of work again today - just to make sure. This is my warning to slow down - I was so very scared. The most important thing now is this baby and I am going to to everything I can to keep the baby safe. The RE said if it happened again I will need to be on bedrest for 4 days. I was suppose to be released from him today but because of the bleeding I have another appointment next week. I just pray this never happens again.

7 weeks today

I got my flu shot and my HINI shot at the OB office today. I was so nervous about getting them but they are done now.

I am already not liking my OB office. I need to make my first OB appointment so I figured I would do it while I was there - so I go to the front desk and tell the girl I liked to schedule my first OB appt - and she said I that I needed to call - and that most people called to make an appoitnment - and I said why - I am here now - she said oh you are coming from a fertility doctor and said it like it was a bad thing and she she would have to call me back tomorrow with a date and time - WTF - this is so silly. I can tell I am already not going to like it there - this is my first child and I know they deal with this all the time - but I do not and I would like some compassion.

7 weeks today - feeling pretty good - the sick stomach feeling as not gotten any worse which I am happy about and hope it stays that way. I am super tired all of the time.

We have a heartbeat!!!!

I went in this morning for my second ultrasound and we saw the little bean again and there was a heartbeat - it was just a tiny little flicker. The baby still looks like a little bean and not a baby yet - but everything looks good. My treat of miscarriage is now down to 5%. My RE told me I can make my first appointment with my OB - I have a third ultrasound next Tuesday and that will probably be my last with the RE - I will be released to my OB. I go in to my OB office on Thursday for my HINI shot - so I will make my appointment then. I get to stop the PIO shots too - which means I do not have to get up at 5:30 am every morning so my husband can give it to me before he leaves for work. I will be on progestrone pills twice a day now. My all my bloodwork has come back good and everything seems to be right on track. I am just so happy - it feels more real now.

Second Ultrasound Tomorrow

I am hoping and praying we see the heartbeat. John swears that they were mistaken last week and we are going to see two babies in there this week. He is so crazy.

I am super tired all of the time - little things wear me out. In bed most nights around 8:30 pm.

I am still not finished my Christmas shopping - but John offered to help. I did get all the Christmas cards written out and some wrapping done this weekend. We also got the rest of the outdoor decorations put up - it looks nice.

I am feeling okay - I wake up in the morning and it is like I am hungover. Car rides are not fun for me - but other than that not too bad - no throwing up yet - hope I never do.

If they see the heartbeat tomorrow they will take me off PIO shots. Even though they do not really bother me - I have to wake up at 5:30 am for John to give it to me before he leaves for work - which is not fun. I will be happy to switch to the pills for that reason.

I have my HINI shot on Thursday. I am getting my hair cut on Saturday - I am getting bangs - something different - if I do not like them - they will grow out fast. Then Sunday we have a Baptism to go to. A busy week for me.

6 weeks today

I am feeling pretty good. I only really feel sick in the morning on the way to work and after I eat my lunch for some reason.

I am looking forward to my ultrasound on Tuesday. I have to ask my RE when I will be released so that when I go to my OB on the 10th for my HINI shot that I can make my first OB appointment when I am there. I do not really like my OB - but he is so close to my house - I would rather see one of his partners but how do you leave a doctor and go with his partner in the same building??

I got some Christmas shopping done last night - I should be done by the weekend - I have alot I want to do this weekend - I want to start wrapping, get the Christmas cards written out and decorate the outside of the house. Well John will do the decorating and will point out where everything goes. I also want to go to honeybaked ham and order our Christmas ham. Lots to be done.

If I can just get through this month

We have a ton going on this month and I am super scared that I am going to get that horrible morning (all day) sickness. I am already not feeling so good - a little sick to my stomach, very tired and just plain blah. I have been going to be at 8 pm so I have been missing all of my shows - I really need to get a DVR. If it just stays like this then I can handle it - but if it gets worse I am not sure what I am going to do.

I am preparing a throw up bag tonight - I know I am a dork - I am going to put in wipes - in case I need to wipe down a toliet that is not my own - some bags for the car, some mints and some preggie pops if they ever come in the mail. I hope to get them today - since I ordered them over a week ago.

I am going to try and get all my Christmas shopping done by the end of this weekend coming up - so I do not have to worry about that - I am going to ask John to start doing the cleaning around the house. I still have to wrap all the present and write out the Christmas cards and prepare the menu for Christmas dinner - we are having about 20 people at my house - I know I am crazy.

I have two doctors appointments next week - our second ultrasound on the 8th and go get my HINI shot on the 10th. I am suppose to get my hair cut on the 12th and we have a baptism to go to on the 13th. I am suppose to have a get together for the girls I use to work with at my house on the 15th and I have to cook dinner for that. Then John's big family Christmas party on the 19th. My brother and his family are coming in on the 22nd and staying until the 27th. Then of course the big Christmas party on the 25th. Not to mention I still have to finish decorating and get a tree.

So as you can see we are going to be crazy busy so I cannot get any sicker - I keep telling this little bean if we can just make it through the next 30 days we will be okay. I already told John if we need to leave one of these events then we have to go and he said he is fine with that - if I am really sick then I just will not go = but I hope it does not come to that.

I am still over the moon happy and still cannot believe I am pregnant and I thank god every day for this wonderful blessing. I am so lucky - I will have my family all around me for Christmas and I have our own little family growing inside me. I am so nervous about the ultrasound on Tuesday - I just pray we see a heartbeat - I think once we see that we will be a little bit more at ease.