Anxiety

I have to say I am having major anxiety over having to go to work full time.  Things are tough now financially for us - as it is for many people - so I really do not have a choice in the matter but I really wish I could stay home with my little love as I like to call him.  I have waited so long for him and he is finally here and I have to spend most of my days away from him - can I just say that royally sucks.

I am lucky because I ended up getting a great deal at my job - with great pay and flexibility - so I really cannot complain on that front but I want to be home with him - I feel like I can give him all the best - better than anyone else can. 

I am just sad because I do not want to miss anything - and I had my mom home with me until I was 12 years old and I think it is important - I guess times are different now.  I would love to live back 30 - 40 years ago where all mothers stayed home with their kids - a simplier life.  Heck now my phone bill is $ 200 - back when I was a kid we did not even have cell phones - the horror.

I guess I am just rambling - I am nervous and anixous about these meetings on Friday - but now I am equiped with the proper questions - thanks ladies for your input - I am using all of your questions - but my heart is still heavy knowing I am not going to be around as much for my little love and how it will affect him.

I guess this is a stuggle working moms face everyday - tell me it will get easier.

Back to Work

I have to go back to work full time in May - sad face.  My SIL has been watching Colin for me but it is not working out - so I have to look for someone else to watch him full time - which makes me sad and nervous.

We have two meeting on Friday with potential in home daycares. 

The first one is about 2 mins from my house - she is my age - she has three children of her own (two whom stay home with her) and watched two other children - her youngest son is Colin's age. She charges $ 125 for the week.

The second one is about 10 - 12 mins from my house - she is older - late 40's and has one son in college - she watches two children - around Colin's age.  She charges $ 130 for the week.

The question I have for my blog readers is what kinds of questions should I ask??  I know I should ask about their background, schooling, if they are CPR certified, if they are registered, etc.  BUT what other things do I need to be asking.  I guess food preparation is something I need to think about and nap time and do they go on trip and do they have a car - I just do not know - I feel overwhelmed.

Any questions that you have asked or you think are important to ask please let me know.  Thank you.

St. Patrick's Day

St. Patrick's day is a big holiday in our house - being that my husband is 100% irish and his parents are from Ireland and most of his family lives in Ireland - it tends to be a big celebration.  One of our friends owns an Irish Pub and we go there every year for St. Patrick's Day - I was extra excited to go this year because I did not end up going last year because Colin was an infant and I did not want to leave him.

Of course my little bug got sick on Thursday night - it was viral and he was running high temps - so I decided to stay home on Saturday night to be with him - but of course we had to get dressed up and get a few pictures in.

 

Then of course photos with each of his parents

 

As you can see my husband grew out a full beard for the holiday - so he went out an got a fake beard to put on Colin for a laugh - my husband is all about doing things for a laugh.  Colin actually kept the beard on which was the funny part - oh how we torture our poor child.

Even though I did not get to go out like I had hoped to - we still had a good night together.

 

 

Switching to Bloglovin

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Bloglovin??

So I have been reading my news feed and it is saying that Google Reader is about to be no more??  I am confused - I acutally never switched over to Google Reader - I just always log into my blog through Blogger - so what am I missing??

Is my blog going to go Bye - Bye?  Am I going to lose all of my posts from years ago??  Do I sign up for a Bloglovin account and everything gets transferred or is it a fresh start??

Can someone please explain this to me??

My First Pinterest Attempt

Cheesecake Dip

I saw this on Pinterest and I thought it looked yummy and easy enough to make and I have to say it turned out great and I thought I would share it with everyone.

Cheesecake dip: 1 block cream cheese, 1 tub marshmallow cream and 2 tubs cool whip mixed together then top with 2 cans cherry pie filling....Serve with graham cracker sticks...EASY AND DELICIOUS :)

Update for 2013

I have been a really bad blogger - but I want to let my readers (if there is any left) know what has been going on with me.

First off I love being a mom - it is the best thing ever - Colin is always learning - he took two steps two days after his first birthday and there has been no stopping him since there - he now knows how to climb up and down stairs and get up and off the couch.  He loves Special Agent Oso and hates the park.  He is saying a couple of words now and is so nosy like his mother.

We found out about a month ago that he has a soy allergy - which was really scary and has been really hard because soy is in EVERYTHING.  We have to keep an epi pen with us at all time.  Since I am not the greatest cook I make alot of stuff that comes in a box or a bag - which is out now - we have just been feeding him alot of whole foods.  We go back in 6 months to see if he has outgrown it. 

Sleep training went horrible and he is now sleeping in our bed every night (don't judge - it is what works for us)  He starts off in his crib every single night - but at some point during the night he ends up in our bed and we like it that way - we all get a good night sleep - there is no tears or stress.  I work part time now and we need our sleep.  I am actually going back to work full time in May - which has me a bit upset - but we have to do what we have to do - but I am sure going to miss my afternoons with my bug.

John and I are doing really well.  His business not so much - we are trying to get it off the ground but with two winters of no snow it has been kinda hard.  We have two embies left and John really wants to try for another baby - but I am just so content with Colin.  For now we have paid for another year of keeping them frozen until we come to a decision.

I have put on some weight since having Colin - I am the heaviest I have ever been - I guess I am in mommy mode - where I put myself on the back burner but I am in a wedding in May so I have to try and start to get modivated to get back into shape.  I have to say since I am honestly so happy - I guess I am content and when you are content (for me) I gain weight.

If there is anyone still out there comment and let me know how you are doing.

Colin 1st Birthday Party

I know this post is so late - but my little baby is one now - how did that happen??

 

 

We had a mickey mouse themed party for him the day after his actual birthday at our home and it turned out really well - it was alot of work but we had it catered - the first time I ever had anything catered.

We had the cakes professionally done and they turned out great.

Everyone we love was there and it was a special day - I feel so blessed to have this great little guy in my life - he has brought such joy and happiness.

Next year we will do it much smaller and only have cake and ice cream - (a cake that I will bake) - I thought the first birthday should be a big deal but I am not into huge parties every year.  I rather get him a nice gift then put the money into a party.

But he had a good time and that is all that matters - love my little man.