35 weeks

3 weeks left

So I jinxed myself in my last post - saying Colin has alot of fluid around him - yeah not so much now.  I went for my NST on Tuesday and again his heart rate was very high and he would not calm down - they could not get a baseline on him - I was there for hours - then when they checked my fluid it went from 14 last week to 9 this week - which is a hugh drop - I am drinking tons of water to try and get it back up before my next NST on Tuesday.

I went to the OB today and had my first internal - he has not dropped and there is no dilation - but she said with his heart rate problems and my low fluid she is not going to let me go a day over 39 weeks - so I will be induced in 3 weeks or less if my fluid continues to decrease. 

I am going to be a mom in less than a month - I am so excited and scared.  I just hope whatever happens it goes smoothly - if I have to get induced I pray I can still have a vaginal birth - but I guess whatever is going to happen is going to happen - as long as Colin is healthy - that is all that matter to me.

About a Month to Go!!!

I cannot believe it is only about a month until our little man arrives - I cannot wait to meet him.

I have to say I honestly know what women mean when they say they are done being pregnant - while I am so grateful for this miracle and so happy he is going to be full term - carrying around a baby is not easy.  John and I went to the mall today to do some returns and I had to sit multiple times and kept running out of breath.  I am tried all of the time - even taking a shower is an effort.

I am hoping to work until January 20th but I am not sure if that is going to happen.  I am going to have my first internal at the OB on Thursday - which I am a big nervous about and throughout this whole pregnant I loved my bump and my pregnant self but not so much anymore - the weight is now spreading all over and I am up 30 pounds - the stretch marks have starting arriving as well.  I just feel like a beast.

Little man is still kicking like crazy - I have alot of fluid in there still - so he has plenty of room to move around - I love feeling him - in some ways I wish I could keep him in there forever because I know he is safe.  All I keep thinking about now is a safe delivery and a healthy baby.

34 weeks

Back to Labor and Delivery

I went to my regular NTS and it did not go so well.  Colin was going crazy and his heartrate was so high and he would not calm down so after over an hour they decided to send me to Labor and Delivery - I got changed - I know the drill now and they hooked me up and within 20 mins he started to calm down and his heartrate went back to normal.  I was having alot of contractions throughout the entire time though.  They said if he keeps doing this they will probably take him early because I am far enough along now.  He is also no longer head down but laying sideways again.

I have an OB appointment tomorrow and I have alot of questions to ask.  I also started Heparin this morning - I have to do this shot twice a day - but so far so good - it does not hurt as much as Lovenox for me - the only problem - it is not covered by insurance - so a 25 day supply cost us $ 260 out of pocket - which right before Christmas was not so great - but what can we do - I have to have it.

I am having alot of anixety - I just want Colin here and healthy - all this labor and delivery trips are starting to scare me.  I even packed a hospital bag and have it in the car now - just in case - I feel like we are just waiting at this point.

We are pretty much ready - we are going to go to BRU tomorrow and get some of the items that you all suggested for breastfeeding.  We put the bassinet in our room tonight.  I still have to boil all the bottles and pacifiers, etc.  Work is crazy and so is getting all of John business information together for the end of the year.  I am hoping after Christmas things will start to slow down.

I am so excited to meet my little man and see what he looks like - I cannot wait to be his mom - he is kicking me like crazy right now and I love every moment of it.

Breastfeeding - What do I need??

I need help and advice from all the breastfeeding mamas out there.

I need to know what supplies I need so I will have everything in stock and ready to go for when Colin comes.

My friend Jenn is giving me her breast pump that she never used.

I also bought the following items:

Storage Bottles

Breast Pads

Breast Cream

So what else do I need to get started??  On a related note I woke up this morning to breast leakage - first time that has every happened since I got pregnant - I guess my body is really getting ready for my little man.

Feeling so blessed

This has been a good week - my friend Jenn offered me her breast pump - which is going to be such a lifesaver for us and save us so much money.  Then it seems like things are going to work out with my current job - even though I have decided to stay home with the baby for the first year - he has decided to work with my schedule and have me do night and weekends - for the year - which is great.  That way either John or I will be home with the baby - and I will be able to make some money.

There is also one crazy thing that happened this week - apparently John's new business is being audited.  I am not really worried about it because everything is in order - and I keep good records - but it has not even been a year yet - they want to set up the aduit for Feb - which is just bad timing - with the baby coming - but what can you do.

I am feeling the same amount of excited and nervousness about the arrival of Colin - I have to stop reading the baby books because all they do is tell you all the bad things that can happen now.  All I want is a healthy Colin.

32 weeks