Getting Nervous and a Birth Plan

It is now the countdown until the end and I am freaking out - I am just so worried I will not know what to do or will not be a good mom.  I am sure all first time moms go through this - I just want to do everything right and know what to do for him.  I just want him to be happy and healthy.

My brother told me we need to have a birth plan - I did not know I needed one but he did bring up some good points.  I want an epi for sure - I also want to do skin to skin and I want to try and breastfeed right away.  If I end up having a c-section - I guess I will not be doing skin to skin or breastfeeding right away.

What are some other things to consider when putting together a birth plan??

Also what are some useful and helpful things to pack for the hosptial??  Is it worth bringing p.j's or should I just stay in the hospital gown the entire time??  Should I bring a robe??  What kind of nursing bra/tanks should I get?? 

We finished the nursery and started putting together the baby items - we have the pack and play up and the swing and rock and play up - we still have to get the car seat installed and put up the bouncer and bassinet - I feel like there is so much to do and I will never be prepared.

Also breastfeeding moms - what do I need to get started - we are holding off on buying a pump until I see if we will even need it - I do have some disposable breast pads - should I get the reuseable ones??  I also have breast cream and that is it - do I need anything else in the beginning??

Moms - are there some things I should stock up on ahead of time - we have plenty of diapers, wipes and bathing products - is there anything I need in the beginning that I should get now.

Any and all advice is appreciated!

Completed Nursery

It's official...

I am going to be a Stay At Home Mom once Colin arrives in January 2012!!!  I am so excited and so nervous about this major decision.  I have worked and had my own money since I was 15 years old.  I told my boss today and he took it really well - he said he felt like it was coming.  I may still work for him on nights and weekends when he needs me and around John's work schedule.  It is going to be tight - but we will not have a problem paying our bills - we will just have to cut back on extras.  I hope I am able to be a good stay at home mom - the plan is to go back to work once Colin is about 18 to 24 months old.  I would want to put him in daycare/school at that time because I think it will be good for him to learn and grow and learn to share and be around other children.  I hope I can make some stay at home mom friends too.  Onto the next chapter of my life - it sure is going to be a change.

Pissed

Tell me readers - am I overreacting??

Here is the story - My SIL - we will call her SIL 1 - she is John's brothers wife - she did a IVF treatment the same time as me and it worked for me but not for her - granted it was her first one and our first one ended in miscarriage but still I felt so bad for her - IF sucks for everyone.

My other SIL - we will call her SIL 2 - is pregnant - she is three weeks behind me and just got pregnant on her own - they were not even trying.

So SIL 1 comes over my house about a month ago and tells me she is happy for SIL 2 but not for me - I am still shocked she would even say that to my face - she said it was because we both did a treatment and hers did not work and mine did.

More on to my baby shower - SIL 1 was not there - I get it - baby showers are hard - so I figure she is going go to bail out of both mine and SIL 2 baby showers and I did not blame her.  But now comes SIL 2 baby shower - and SIL 1 is actually bringing SIL 2 to the baby shower - so obviously she is going to be at SIL 2 baby shower.

I cannot believe this - how can you go to SIL 2 baby shower and not mine - it is not right and it is not fair and I think it is just wrong - then SIL1 facebooks me and says I am still thinking of you - bullshit.  Obviously she really is not happy for me and really happy for SIL2 - which is being shown in her actions.  I am so just so mad - you do not go to one family members shower and not the other.  I am so hurt and I have decide no more being nice - she better not say anything to me at this shower.

Maybe it is my hormones but I am just so upset by this - because if I tried to pull this crap John's family would be all over me about this and when I raise the issue to his family about the way she is treat the two pregnant women in the family completely different - they actually told me that maybe she has healed - or is healing - oh so she is healed enough to go to a baby shower 3 weeks after mine - please.

Nursery Progress

So the nursery is almost done - thank goodness.  The walls are paint - new closet door is hung - floors are refinished - the area rug is down - the shades and curtains are up on the windows - all that need to be done now is for the closet organizers to be hung - all the wall art to be hung - all the furniture to be put in and of course all of the cute accessories - but here is some pictures from where it is at today - I hope to post finish pictures by next weekend.

Quiet

Things have been pretty calm and quiet that last week - which is the way I want it to be - I am feeling pretty good - I cannot really complain - my only real issue is sleep - I do not sleep really well - but I mind as well get use to that.  I have gained 20 pounds so far - which is pretty standard - I think - I am up to 148 pounds.  I am thinking I will probably gain about 10 more - we will see.

I have my first non-stress test this afternoon - and tomorrow I have to take my glucose test - which I am not looking forward to at all.  Thursday night is our breastfeeding class - I cannot believe I will be 29 weeks on Thursday - time is flying.  I cannot wait to meet my little man.

We had our 3D ultrasound on Saturday - it was so wonderful - and so detailed - Colin looks just like John - he has every single facial feature of John's - I do not see me in him at all - but I am sure that could and probably will change.

The nursery is almost done - John worked really hard on it this weekend - it is turning out really nice - I will post pictures when it is all done.  We also picked up Colin's mattress on Sat. as well - it was last thing we needed (for now) for him.  I still have to wash all of his clothes and sheets, etc.  But things are slowly but surely getting done.

Two of my friends Jenn and Dana are giving their son's old clothing - which is so great - because we did not get alot of clothes at the shower - so now I do not need to worry about going out and buying of ton of stuff for him.

I have gone part time at work - it is just too much with all the appointment working full time - my boss was not too happy about it - but it is working out great for me - I get to nap in the afternoons and do what needs to get done.

I am just very very happy - I hope the rest of these 11 plus weeks go smoothly and we have a healthy delivery and healthy baby - other than that - that is all I can ask for.

Labor and Delivery again

Yup - I was back in Labor and Delivery again today.  I was having some minor dull cramping/ache in my lower stomach - it started last night - I figured I had an OB appointment today and I would just ask them then.  I thought they would just say it is growing pains or the baby streching out or something simple like that - nope they said we think you are contracting and you need to go to Labor and Delivery right now.  So back the hospital I went - they hooked me up to the machine and I only had one contracting in 20 mins - they believe that I am dehyrated and that is why I had one minor contraction.  They doctor can in and did a test to determine if I will go into labor early - they will call me if it come back positive - but I will not find out until tonight.  She also did an exam and it hurt - but she said I am long and closed and not dilaiting so that is all a good sign and they let me go home.  I was told I must take it easy and rest in bed as much as possible - I can still work but I need to rest as much as possible and drink drink drink plenty of fluids.