Found Someone to Talk to - and Pimped Out

I went on the Resolve website and found a counseler in my area. She specializes in infertility and loss and she takes my insurance which is wonderful. Her name is Susan and I have an appointment with her next Friday at 8 pm. I went to counseler back when I was about 12 years old because I was so scared my mom was dying and then again when my mother passed away - ironic huh - anyway - so I know what to expect.

At this point I am not sure if we are going to end up doing the FET in August - if things do not start to get better I am not sure if I want to move forward with treatments. I need to find out what I am doing and what I want. I asked John to go to counseling with me and again he said no. I plan on telling him tonight that I made an appointment for myself. Not sure how he will react.

Now to the pimping out - my boss called me into his office the day I got back from vacation - he was in there with another attorney - this other attorney is a good friend of my boss and I know him. Apparently this other attorney - we will call him B - lost his secretary and he needs someone to help him so my boss told him he could have me one day a week. I will have my normal hours and my normal lunch break - I will just report to B office and help him out on Thursdays. I do not get paid any extra for this - which I am not happy about - but I guess it is during my normal work hours - but I feel like my boss pimped me out. Now it is like I am started a whole new job.

I am due for a raise in June and I fully intend to ask for one now. I should be happy that I get to have a new experience and see how a normal office works without a drunk and an opportunity to learn but I just feel like I am getting used and passed around - like I am an object - not a person.