My water broke at 2 am on Wednesday January 18, 2012. I decided to take my time since I was in no pain - I got a shower - blow dried my hair and got all of our stuff together. We got to the hospital about 4:00 am - we were the only patients on the floor. I got changed and they checked me - no dilation and cervix was long and closed. Since there was no doctor in they just had me walk the halls until 6:00 am - they checked me again at 6:30 am - I was 2 cm 70 % effaced. They started the pitocin - which continued to help me dilate. I started to really feel the contractions - they checked me and I was 5 cm - so I decided to get the epi - the epi did not hurt at all - and it started working right away - I felt no pain - the next time they checked me I was 8 cm and zero station. I started to run a fever and not feel so well and I was getting a headache.
Since I was running a fever the doctor came in and checked me - she said I was still 8 cm but during a contraction she could stretch me to 10 cm - she wanted me to start pushing - which I thought was crazy since I was only really 8 cm - but I really think they were worried about my fever that kept going up and they wanted to get the baby out. I pushed and did well - but they decided to move the process along and use the vaccum - I pushed for 35 mins and he was out - but they did have to cut me - alot - to get his head out.
Sadly, right after the pulled him out and put him on me I began throwing up - so I did not get to do skin to skin like I wanted to and I did not get a picture of John cutting the cord. Once they weighed him and cleaned him up they gave him to me and he was the most handsome little guy I had ever seen. I was shaking for about an hour after labor - I guess it was from the trama. I tried to breastfeed but he would not latch.
By the time I got up to recovery my fever was up to 104 - I was in alot of pain because the epi had worn off. They tried to get me to stand to go to the bathroom and I almost passed out and then they had to use smelling salts - they brought the baby in to breast feed and he latched but would not suck. After that they tried to get me up again to go to the bathroom - but I was so swollen that I could not go - so they cath me for the night. We were up from 2 am on Wednesday morning until 1 am on Thursday morning - it was a long day.
During the night they never woke me up to give me pain medication so I woke up in so much pain my whole body was shaking again. Once I was up for the day they took the cath out and I was suppose to go to the bathroom on my own but I could not still. Colin again latched but would not suck so I decided to try and pump but it was way to painful. There was so many people coming in the room it was so overwhelming - we had the bella baby photos done too and they turned out pretty good - all day long though I could not go to the bathroom - so by 4 pm they decided to straight cath me to empty my bladder - I started walking the halls to try and help gravity make me go - by 9 pm still no luck so they cath me again for the night - which was very frustrating to me. I decide to just bottle feed because it was way to stressful and painful and I honestly could not handle it - I was disappointed in myself but I had to do what was right for me and the baby at the time.
On Friday morning they took the cath out again - I tried to go to the bathroom all day with no luck so they straight cath me again - the new nurse came on and she asked me if I had been using ice and I said no they would not let me and she said I could have some - as soon as I put the ice on not a 1/2 an hour later - I went to the bathroom - so they let me go home - we left the hospital at 7 pm - Colin puked the whole way home and cried in between puking - the first night John's sister stayed with us so we could get some sleep.
I am still sore and still using ice but it is getting better everyday and Colin is healthy and that is all that really matters.
7 comments:
So glad he's here!! :) Hope you are feeling better!
Oh honey... I'm sorry. For the trauma and the things not being the way you wanted. Yes, he's perfect and healthy, and that is wonderful, and for that, I am so happy. But should you feel like you need to talk at some time, about the things that went right and the things that went wrong, there are places you can turn, to get your feelings out. In spite of all the good (healthy baby, etc,) you may sometime feel a build up of anger, hurt, etc and want to get it out. http://www.solaceformothers.org/
Yay Colin is here!!!! I had a really similar postpartum situation. Have you tried ice diapers?!?! Take a size one diaper and open it up like a bag of chips then tape it back up. You can wear it kind of like a huge pad. I used them for weeks :)
I hope you are getting some rest and recovery is getting better. Try pumping again if you can. It's very frustrating at first, but you will get the hang of it.
Oh honey, I have been wondering what was going on and waiting to hear. I am soo sorry! I know it is tough, but you are so right that baby boy is worth it all! My c/s recovery wasn't a piece of cake either (but I knew what i was going into). I think Michele's correct that you may have some feelings about it down the road so don't let it build up!
Thinking about yall!
How awful and scary! So good that Collin was okay through it all. Glad to hear you're doing better.
I had a similar experience-my recovery was absolutely awful. What made it worse was everyone was giving me so much guilt about the breastfeeding, I was too worried about torturing myself with that and pumping myself to death than enjoying my baby. I wish someone would have just told me to 'do what's best for you and your baby'. This is such a special time for the two of you-don't make decisions for you and Colin based on other's desires. The best advice I've received is don't listen-do what's best for you. Good luck and I hope you feel better :)
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