CD 1 was on Friday - so John picked up all of my medicine for the cycle. I started the antibotic and baby aspirin on Saturday - I go in this Friday the 29th for my first ultrasound and bloodwork. Then start using OPK's until I O. Looking like the transfer could possibly be around May 9-12. Now that it is becoming more real - I am starting to get really nervous - I am just so nervous about another miscarriage - I even thought of backing out of it - thinking I was not ready - my nerves are really bad right now and it is making my stomach all messed up again. I am going to therapy and acupuncture this week to help try to calm my nerves.
I know everyone says it will be okay and not to think about it and only think positive - and while I try to do that - it is always in the back of my head what happened last time.
We had our first BBQ of the season on Saturday - it was great fun - I even had some wine - I am not a huge drinker at all - but I thought this may be my last chance to have some wine before I get knocked up : )
Here are some pictures of the BBQ:
Me acting like a thug
Dancing
Horseshoes
Loving my Hubby
I feel like everything seems to be moving in the right direction. I am starting my new job in July with a huge raise and 5 extra holidays - which is so so wonderful and I am so grateful for that. I have a lovely home, a husband who loves me, a great job, and wonderful family and friends - the only thing missing is a baby. I feel like if everything is going to well then hopefully it will keep going well and this cycle will work. But the negative in me is waiting for the other shoe to drop.
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Sending you lots of positive vibes!
Good luck!
Thinking of you and hoping for a great outcome this time
x
It is so hard to not thing about previous negative outcomes and losses! You CAN do this though. Maybe try some meditative yoga - it's amazing how quickly and effictively that can calm nerves =).
I too am sending tons of positive vibes your way!!
Ooh, good luck! And congrats on the job! So glad you got out of that toxic situation.
I'm so glad everything is falling into place! Gosh the transfer is just around the corner. So excited for you!!
It is hard to stay positive when negative things have happened. I am still having issues pursuing another IVF after the drama of our last. I totally get it! Sometimes positive thinking isn't enough. I'm glad you have other things lined up to help.
Good luck Jackie!!! I am so glad everything worked out with your job situation!
That is so sweet that John picked up the meds. Way to get him involved!! I am thinking of you ALL the time...I am sorry I am a horrible friend and haven't emailed in forever. It is so hard to type one handed. When you get nervous, get that prayer shawl out and wrap it around you and think that me and the women who sewed it are still praying for you!
Looks like the BBQ was a blast!! Try and plan some fun distractions this month!!
OXOXOX,
j
It's so hard to not compare each cycle, it is so scary but this time will be different.
((HUGS))
GL cutie and Congrats on the new job.
As always, sending lots of love and prayers. I think you need to prescribe yourself some more barbecues in the meantime. ^.~
So many congrats on the new job, by the way!
Good luck!
I have a friend who went through 2 miscarriages because of a blood clotting disorder-sounded similar to yours. But doctors finally realized that was the issue and was treated for during her 3rd pregnancy. She now has a happy and healthy 15 month old. Hope that gives you some encouragement! :)
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