Thursday, September 24, 2009

Things are getting better

John just really need some space - time to adjust. We did not talk for two days because I was so upset at the way he was acting and I did not want to blow up in his face with my angry. So I calm down and yesterday when he came home we talked. He said he was sorry for acting like a jerk and that he is going to be there for me from now on and that I can count on him. He said this is just alot to handle. I am really hoping things go smoothly from now on because I cannot take much more craziness. I am really hoping he means what he says. He has never let me down before when it comes to big things - so I am positive he will be there for me when I need him. I told him I may have to take the Lupron in the morning - since he is giving me all of my shots - that means getting up at 5 am when he gets up to give me the shot (I usually do not wake up until 7 am) and he said he will talk to his boss and rework his schedule if we need to do morning shots. Now that is a step in the right direction.

I still do not know what I am going to do about work. I have three options regarding missing time for appointment. One is to stay late on the days I miss time - which is my least favorite option - two is the come in on Saturdays and make up my time - which may work better for me and three is to count up the hours until it equals one day and take it as a vacation day. Not sure what I am going to do yet - especially since it has been so crazy at work with me being the only secretary here now. My friends keep telling me not to worry about work - IVF comes first. I guess I will figure it out as the time comes.

Just waiting for my period to start - any day now I hope and we will begin.

6 comments:

akoto said...

I'm glad to hear the space helped him clear his mind a bit. You two have already proven countless times that you really can overcome anything together.

Tabitha said...

I'm so glad that things are going better for you already! I knew he'd come around!

Nicole said...

Glad you two are back on the same page :)
As far as work goes, if you can afford to miss the money, I'd say take the vacation day. You don't want to be worrying the whole time you're at the doctor's office about how much time it's taking, especially since waiting is a big part of a dr. office. Any stress that can be avoided is major helpful in IVF. It will work out, even if at last minute. If you feel like this is what God wants you to do (which I'm sure you do), it will. "The Lord giveth no commandment to the children of men save He shall prepare a way for them to accomplish the thing which He commandeth them." :)

Alli B said...

Jackie, I am glad things are better for you guys. That is awesome that he said he may be able to re-work his schedule for you so you don't have to get up early. I am so excited for you, since you have worked so hard to save up for this and everything. I am not really religious, but have been praying to St. Rita recently, and since I think she is one of the saints of infertility among other things, I have been saying a little prayer for you. Good luck with everything!

Kitty said...

I'm glad to read that things have gotten better! Good luck!!!

One Who Understands said...

I am so happy he is finally coming around. I have noticed with my DH that is I give him time to think and hang back he works things out. They do come around.

I agree with your coworkers. Do NOT worry about work. It will all be fine. Our clinic is in another city and I have discussed with my boss that IVF comes first. So I think I may just be taking a week off during stims, paid or unpaid. You can only do so much. Good luck!!