My marriage is getting better step by step - I am trying to listen to John and he is really trying to listen to me and do the things I ask of him. Which is so refreshing - we are really trying to work on our marriage now. Before we were so wrapped up in our own grief that we basically let our marriage fall by the waist side. But now we are really trying and it is actually starting to make a difference.
Since things are going so well with the marriage my gut instinct is to go forward with the FET in August - but I am just going to wait and see how I feel when that time comes.
I am bitter about my infertility and the loss of my baby - any person who reads this blog knows that - some days are better then others - Friday was not a good day - but today is better - thank you for being with me through my ups and downs.
I even did something shocking yesterday- I went into Babies R Us for the first time in about 3 years - I am sure people noticed how very uncomfortable my husband and I were - because I could see it all over my husband's face - so we went in - got the travel system for my SIL baby and left - we did not look around - I basically tried to keep my eyes on the floor - and we were out of there in under 5 mins. If I would of started to look at the stuff or all the babies and pregnant women then I would of cried - but my husband was there with me and we got it done. I know it sounds silly to alot of you - but that was a big deal to go in there for me.
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Wonderful news!! Chris and I had the same sort of talk, we still have to turn to one another and say "we will not let us get the best of us!"
I think by August you will know what you need to do. The best part is that if you do decide to wait, those precious embies aren't going anywhere!
Props for hitting up the BRB, you are braver than I am.
It dosent sound silly. I struggle to go in those stores and I havent been through what you have.
Pleased that you are starting to get your marraige back on track, keep up the good work
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I'm glad that things are getting better for the two of you!
I'm glad that things are getting better for the two of you!
Not silly at all! That was very brave and big of you. You could have bought a gift card at a store or just given money. You walked in there even though it was difficult for you. That means so much!!
Not silly at all! I am so glad to hear things are better with your marriage :)
I'm glad things are getting better. My hubby always tries to keep me away from the baby section in the stores. I'm glad when he does!
Hi Jackie. I'm so glad to hear that things are starting to get better. Infertility treatments alone are so much stress on a marriage. By themselves they can tear a marriage apart. Then add in pregnancy loss and it is such a battle to keep things strong and solid. The depression that comes after a m/c is like nothing else. I think it is a very good idea for you to take things one step at a time, and wait and see how you feel once August gets here. It takes a lot of work and time to rebuild that foundation that IF & loss tears down. {{{HUGS}}}
Thats so great that things are going a bit better for you guys. I'm thinking fo you
So glad you are working through things. But, I think it's good to wait to make the decision until you are ready.
Babies R Us is tough girl, I don't blame you at all! I would have ordered it online.
I'm so glad to hear that you guys are getting along so well and things are progressing in such a prositive way in that department. It's so important :)
I am truly so sorry about the struggle to cope with your loss. I m/c my first IVF pregnancy and it was soooo difficult and the grief lasted so long.
And good job on digging up the courage to go into BRU! That place is the enemy of IFers, lol. I can't believe you did it :)
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