On Saturday I was able to talk to my pregnant SIL - which I have not done in awhile - I have been avoiding her which is so wrong - we talked about her pregnancy - her ultrasound coming up - registering and baby furniture and I was fine. Very happy for her.
But today I feel dark - like I am in a dark place and I do not know how to get out of it. I am sad and I miss my baby. I am scared if I will get pregnant again will it be better or worse - will I be scared the entire time and stress myself out. All I can think about is the hope that we get pregnant on our own but also the saddness of the fact that we only have a 1% chance of that happening.
I guess I am kinda a mess today - at least I have work to distract me.
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Big hugs. I can completely relate to this feeling. My ability to deal with my infertility varies from day to day. Some days I compare myself to my supermom best friends and feel so sad, while other days I seem to be able to deal with it much easier.
I can completely relate, 100%. I'm sorry for what you're going through. I hope that work helped to distract you.
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Totally can relate, girl. One minute I'm shopping for cute lil baby clothes for friends, the next minute I'm in a post-miscarriage fog. Crying at the drop of hat. Hang in there. Sending you hope and hugs...
Big hugs. I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. Take care of yourself.
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