No Show

My husband did not come to therapy - he had to work late - I was so very upset - knowing somehow someway he could of gotten out of work and come to the appointment. He said he really could not and that he is coming next week - the therapist told me to just tell him I was disappointed and see if he shows up next week.

He knew how upset I was so he did step up for me in a big way last night. I have a godmother that has been very sick and I have been taking care of her for months - but she is getting worse and worse and it is beginning to be too much for me.

Anyway - last night she was being sent home from the hospital for the 4th time - I had to pick her up - now she is not blood realted to me and I have asked her family several times to help me - she has no children and her husband is gone but she has a ton of extended family. Anyway - John meets me at her house to help her in the house - we had to clean her bedroom - change the sheets - do the wash - clean the bathrooms - go food shopping and pick up her medicine - and make her something to eat - John helped with everything and did not complain once and then took me out to dinner afterwards since we were there for 3 hours and it was too late to cook something.

So for the past couple of months I have been asking the family to step in and help and I have also been asking my godmother if I can call in help and see what she qualifies for free assistance. She kepts saying no and says she is fine and so does the family so I got to my breaking point yesterday - I was only suppose to drop her off at home and the niece was suppose to be there to do all the things listed above that John and I had to do - well she decided she was not coming until this morning - meaning I had to do everything - so I wrote to her and told them I am done. I cannot handle this anymore I need to take care of myself and my health issues and you would think they would thank me for all I have done - nope they yelled at me saying to butt out and it is none of my business and I should not be telling my godmother she needs additional help. Hello she can barely walk from her bedroom to her kitchen and she lives alone - she needs help.

I am not going to let her family get under my skin - I said my peace - I told them I cannot handle it anymore and they are suppose to step in now - I will just have to start saying no to my godmother when she ask me for things so she will go to them for help. It is not that I do not love her and want her to be okay - it is just that it is too much on me now - I have been helping her and doing her errands and taking care of her since February and enough is enough. She lives alone and is sick and old - she needs more help then I can give her at this point.