Weekend

John is really stepping it up since he did not show up to counseling on Wednesday - not sure if he feels gulity or he knows things need to change. He was home most of the weekend which I loved. On Friday night we just spend the night in watching tv and had chinese food for dinner. Saturday we both worked and then we spend the evening together and actually ended up going to bed at 9 pm - which is sad since we are young with no children and it was a Saturday night but I guess we were sleepy. On Sunday he woke up and made me breakfast and then topped our tree out front of our house which I have been asking him to do for about 6 weeks and then instead of going up his friend's house like he normally does on Sunday to watch the football games - he stayed home with me - it was nice.

I still want him to come to counseling on Wednesday and as of right now he said he would - but I know that can change. I am really hoping things are starting to turn around.

As far as my health goes I have been stressed beyond belief between work, my husband, and my godmother - but now I think I have the godmother situation under control and I have to just learn how to say no from now on. I am trying to get to yoga class twice a week and I am going to take up mediation to see if that will help with the stress.

Trying not to get too ahead of myself is an ongoing battle for me - I am really trying to work on myself. I still think about having a family all of the time but I know now is not the right time. John and I both have to get back on track - not only in our marriage but also with ourselves.

I hope everyone has a wonderful week.