So I did something I never thought I would do - I skipped a baby shower yesterday. Before being infertile I never got why women did this and now I know all too well. It is just too painful - looking at all of those cute clothes and baby things and all the cute baby bumps - of course there is always like three or four girls that are pregnant at each shower. When I went to the last one in December - there were 5 pregnant women - I just could not take that again - why torture myself - I did send a very nice gift with my sister in law.
Today I kinda feel gulity I was not there - like it was so silly of me to skip it . Okay now is where I get really strange - I went on people.com this morning and the top story was Nicole Richie is pregnant again - and I got upset - now I get upset over pregnancy announcements of people I do not even know - it is pathetic - but all I kept thinking is she is going to have two children before I even have one - maybe it is because we are the same age - who knows. There it is - think what you will of me.
I had a good night last night with the hubs. The sex demo was canceled so we stayed home. John brought home a bunch of junk food - ice cream and nachos, and candy - so good and we watched Taken and Gran Torino - both were bootleg obviously but both were very good. Gran Torino is one of the best movies I have seen in a few long time.
I am listening to some Bethany Joy Galeotti - her music always makes me feel better.
8 comments:
Sorry you are having one of those days :( I think it's totally okay you didn't got to the baby shower. It's an act of self-preservation. I hear you on the Nicole Richie thing. I think I'll try drugs to get PG, seems to work for so many others. Hang in there! ((HUGS))
I'm also sorry to hear that you had a down day. I find pregnancy news of others so difficult sometimes...It can be very painful.
I hope that this week is better for you.
I'm sorry you're having a rough day. Know we've all been there and it will get better!
still wondering what this sex demo thing is....should i know???
also: i had no idea she was pregnant! how did i miss this?
totally fine for you not to go to a shower. i have not been to one since 2006. ha ha. i manage to avoid them at all costs!
I wouldnt have been able to go to the shower either. I didnt realise she was pregnant. I get v enviuos of any pregnancy anouncement, famous or not. I think the only ones I am the least jealous and angry about is fellow bloggers!!
I had to subscribe to your thread as I find it comforting. I know exactly how you feel. I have a friend who wasn't planning on getting pregnant and POOF...she is 8 weeks along. She is now going to be having a baby shower and I have been dreading it ever since finding out she was pregnant. That was the first thing that popped into my head. I thought I was the only one with this sort of fear. Good to know I am not alone...and neither are you!
So sorry you are having a down day :( It stinks and you are so sweet to even feel bad about feeling bad! It shows what a great person you are!
I didn't hear that about Nicole Ritchie but I know the feeling. I havent talked to my best friend/pregnant cousins in 10 weeks because she in unexpectedly expecting...and i feel horrible...but sometimes we really just need to take care of ourselves for a change!
Blessings to you and I will say a extra little prayer for you!
You're SO not alone in this! When I see a preg woman I sometimes think I can't take it any more and I want to throw myself on the floor and have a tissy fit just like a two year old! I think it's the pure fact that it's something that growing up noone ever tells us is even going to be a question. No one tells you in sex ed class that it's NOT always so simple...
I'm with you !
Leslie
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