I am in a funk and have been all weekend. It is the clomid - I know it. I hate what this drug does to my mental state.
I just feel so very defeated in every aspect of my life. I am so depressed and really have no desire to do this IUI - I am usually all about it - doing the OPK's and all that - making sure the timing is right - but not this time - I feel like it is a waste. If the last six did not work then this is not going to work either.
I have to call and cancel my IVF consult today - I have been putting off canceling it - it makes me sad to know that we cannot do IVF right now and that we have to wait.
Plus DH is giving me a hard time - he has to take all of this medication now and he does not want to do it - I am pissed about that - all that I do - all the crap I go through - with bloodwork and ultrasounds and stupid clomid and he is complaining. Ughh.
Then my job is horrible - I hate it here - I hate the people I work with and I hate my boss - they are all much older than me and I just do not fit in - I have not found a single job to even apply too - that I would be remotely interested in.
Plus I am tired of the winter and snow and ice and cold - I want spring to be here already.
I guess this is just my vent of the day.
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**hugs** I'm sorry for the rough past few days!!
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we should have hung out todasy because i have been in such a bad mmod every one i encounter ( whom I know) i'm warning them i have no reason and am trying to not think about it all but damn i am just in a horrible mood...comparison of work i hate school...this quarter is such monkey work and a wats eof time on top of it being somethigi am horrible at ART ugh we should be grumpy buddies together :)
Clomid is evil.
I know how you feel. Hang in there and try to stay hopeful. I've been through four IUIs myself, but no pregnancy yet. I hope that this one works for you!
Big hugs to you. I know how hard it can be, I'm am also in a yucky funk, but I can't blame it on anyone or thing but myself.
Clomid is the devil in pill form. I had such a hard time on that drug. Sorry you are going through that.
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