IUI # 3 - Complete

I had my 3rd IUI yesterday morning. It went well - John's count was down - it went from 39 million to 19 million - which I guess is still okay - but his motility went up from 32% to 70% - which is great. I really feel that the timing was finally right - I hope this is it for us - I hope the 3rd time is a charm. I have been feeling pretty crampy and had some minor spotting which is normal - but other than that - I am feeling fine.

It makes me sad to see how much husband outlook on our infertility has changed over these past three IUI's. With our first IUI he was so full of hope - so sure I was pregnant -he even talked to my stomach and now as we were going in for our 3rd IUI yesterday - he said to me - this is so pointless - he has basically lost all hope - it just breaks my heart - Infertility is just so hard to cope with sometimes.

Then there was the whole collecting the sperm sample at home. This was the first time we had to do this - he always did his thing at the office - I honestly did not like the fact that we had to collect it at home - I felt so embrassed as I carried my husband sperm into the hospital - in a hallmark bag. Not that anyone knew what I was carrying but it was just so embrassing to me because I knew what I was carrying.

Last night we went to a benefit for breast cancer and of course they had all of these item to raffle off - so I bought some tickets and put one ticket in each prize option. Well I won, and guess what I won. A mother's day basket. How ironic is that - not only am I not a mother but I no longer have a mother - but I am going to take it as a sign that this IUI worked and I will be a mother, plus it is a pretty nice basket too - with slippers and candles and all kinds of cool things.

So I also bit the bullet and went to Hallmark and got mother's day cards for all the important mothers in my life, including my sister in law and godmother. I also bought a gift for my mother in law - which I was not going to do because I was being a bitter betty about this whole day in general, but I did it and I mailed all the cards out and I will go see my mother in law on Sunday and give her the gift. I think I will also remember my mom by buying some flowers - red roses - her favorite.