Worried

I am getting myself all worked up. I have been reading the book "A Few Good Eggs" it is a very infromative book and I should of read it in the beginning of this whole TTC process - but being that I am already two years into it - I know most of the stuff already. But they talk alot about the side effects of all the different fertility medication and how they may effect our bodies and health later in life and it really got me thinking - what the hell am I doing to my body - it is not normal to produce multiple eggs and even it it does produce a child - will I even be around to see him/her graduate or get married or see grandchildren - what if I am really messing up my body.

In some way I already am - ever since I started fertility treatment I begin to spot a few day before my period which I never did before - and I use to be one of those girls who never had a cramp in her life and now I feel everything throughout my cycle.

I am still waiting on AF - I am hoping she is here by tomorrow because I really feel like crap - my back is killing me and I have such bad cramps and my boobs are so sore. I just want to get moving on the next cycle already.