I really hate the face that people make right before they are about to tell me that someone or they are pregnant. They all do it too - it does not matter who it is - it is always the same face - like they just ate a lemon or something. I know as soon as I see it that another pregnancy announcement is coming and I try to brace myself.
Last night I got the face again and for some reason I took it harder than I have been taking it. When we first got dx with MFI I had a hard time with pregnancy announcements but as time went on they became less and less painful. I kept saying to myself - I cannot get upset because people get pregnant - just because I can't does not mean the world stops having babies.
Anyway - it was my co-workers daughter. She is with a loser guy who already cheated on her once (that she knows of) and left her once, she has no job, no health insurance and is about to get kicked out of her apartment. All I kept thinking was this is so not fair. I waited, I waited until I had a house and a good job and was married. Sometimes I just do not get it. It hurt last night - it made my heart break a little and I felt very jealous. I have not felt like this in a long time and I cannot shake the feeling.
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A former coworker of mine who was contemplating divorce got pregnant accidentally. She told me later that she got pregnant to save her marriage. She told me this about a month after I had a miscarriage. Yeah...we don't talk anymore.
I understand how you feel and I am sorry.
I am sorry. Life certainly is not fair. I know people who are pregnant and dont deserve to be for what ever reason. It makes you feel rubbish about yourself I agree but our time will come, positive thinking!! When it does come we will value it so much more than them! keep smiling, even if it is through gritted teeth! x
I am sorry sweetie. I too hate that face. It is odd how sometimes you can blow off an announcement and yet other times it feels like someone punched you in the stomach. For me it depends on where we are. If were are in the middle of a promising cycle, I am okay, if we are on a break... it hurts worse. Life is just not fair.
I'm sort of new to the blog world but I wanted to send you message because I was searching for girls who are going through the same things as I am and have gone through. Its nice to know other people who are. I too hate the face people give when they tell the news. I've perfected the "I'm not jelouse I'm truly happy for you face". I have to give back. I am truly happy for people just very jelouse as well.
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