Friday, August 21, 2009
More Random Thoughts and Complaining
I am just not in the best place right now. I got some medication from a wonderful nestie - Lovemymonkey - thank you so much Rosemary - in the mail yesterday and IVF started to really sink in - seeing those needles made me upset because I wish that we did not have to do this. I know a positive attitude is the best thing to have at this point but I am a pissimist - I always have and I always will be. I am grateful for everything do have but I always feel like I am getting the short end of the stick. I am feeling very overwhlemed and I am not getting the support that I thought I would get my the people I choose to tell about our IVF cycle. I seem to be fighting with my husband more and fighting with my friends. I am just exhausted and this has not even started yet. I do not know how women do this and make it look so easy because it is not easy - not one bit. I am weak how am I ever going to get through this and if it does not work - how do you not fall apart. I guess I am just being really negative today because I am in a huge funk.
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I'm so sorry your feeling this way my dear! I'll be praying for you, that God sends you peace and strength through this journey. Your NOT alone!!
I am sorry girl, Hugs!
I know what you mean about support. None of my friends have gone through this so they don't know what it's like. Our first IVF didn't work and at first I was very upset but we knew going into it that it wasn't a 100% guarantee. You just have to decide, is having a baby worth doing the shots and enduring all the appointments? For me, that answer is yes. Even though I ice down for 5 minutes, some of the stims burn as they go in but I tell myself that when our baby is born, it will have all been worth it.
On a side note, I have some Menopur leftover from a previous cycle that I don't need anymore. My protocol calls for Bravelle so if you need it, it's yours. While my insurance does not cover IVF costs, it does cover the meds except for a small co-pay. I would love to help someone out so feel free to email me. I'm on the nest as Msinformation if you want to look me up.
Its ok to feel in a funk you ar allowed! IF is HARD and thats putting it lightly! hang in there and know your being thought of and prayed for!
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