I was watching Giuliana and Bill last night and they are struggling with infertility as well and they talk about being childless. I do not like that word - it hurts my heart - but that is what we are - we are childless.
I am so very sad and depressed - I tried to put on a brave front - taking care of myself and booking vacations and pretending like it was not all that bad - but it is really hitting me now.
I am childless and I may never have children. My heart is breaking.
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I didn't know this about Giuliana and Bill. I'm glad that they were talking about it openly.
I also don't like "childless", just like I don't like the phrase "broken home".
(((HUGS)))
Jackie,
Hello and I am new to your blog by way of The Sun Will Come out Tomorrow.
First, let me say that I am sorry for your loss. I too, suffered the no heartbeat u/s visit and it's heartbreaking and dream crusing. However, I refuse to say IF and have willed myself to say WHEN. WHEN it happens again for you and WHEN it happens again for me :) I won't let "us" be defeated.
I've watched Guiliana and Bill too, with my hubby, as they've tried to conceive. I always marvel at how incredibly "brave" they are to do this in such a public forum. Yet, I'm happy they are sharing the struggle, as its nothing to hide and is very common.
I look forward to journeying with you and seeing you realize your dream...you WILL, I refuse to believe any differently :)
HUGS
Andrea
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Since my recent failed IVF, I've tried not to think about living childless, but it still creeps into my head. It's so hard to deal with. I was at the store tonight and was sad when I saw all the cute easter baby clothes. I almost had a melt down in the store.
I'm sorry you are feeling sad. I've been in the same sad boat too. Hoping we can both find our way out of this funk.
My heart is breaking with you. Not just because I fall into the same category, but because you are hurting. I wish I could make it better.
Those same thoughts crossed my mind before we did IVF. My heart aches for you. If you guys decide not to do IVF again, adoption is always an option. I know some people aren't ready for that step, but my thoughts on that were always "I'm guaranteed a child". I have a friend who went thru IVF and she lost the baby as well,she didn't want to go thru that heartbreak again and they then adopted a 14 month old boy from Russia (so flippin cute!) and are now going thru the paperwork to adopt again.
I'm thinking of you and saying prayers.
Jackie,
I saw the same episode. It looks like they are heading towards IUI with injectables or IVF, because the previews for the next episode show Giuliana and Bill trying to figure out a follistim pen.
I know it's hard to hear those words, especially after working so hard for a baby.
Good luck in the future!
Liz
P.S. I'm here from random blog searches online. :)
www.lifeishow.wordpress.com
Sending a hug...
Thinking of you and sending a hug....
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I wwish I could reach out and hug you. I wrestled with that title SOOOO many times, wondering if it would ever change. Trying to accept that it wouldn't. Trying to force it to change. Trying to pretend it didn't matter. And so forth. The times when the realization just hit me smack in the middle of the heart and felt so heavy were the worst hours of my IF emotionally. I hate to hear that you are going through that now. I'm so sorry. Anything I could say other than that would be annoying right now, so... I'll leave it at sorry. :(
I couldn't agree more. It's scary and uber upsetting to think that we might be a childless married couple as well. But like Bill said, at the end of the day whether we have kids or not, we still have our spouse. I feel somewhat better knowing that regardless of where this journey takes us, I'll be ok as long as I have my husband by my side.
I am a couple episodes behind but am following Guilianna & Bill too. I am so happy they are sharing this with us, it will help bring awareness to IF.
Thinking about being childess is too hard for me to even go there. It's such a sad thought. Thank God for my furbabies or I would feel completely empty. They somehow fill a void. Not the whole void, but part of it.
Oh, I'm so sorry you're hurting. IF is so hearbreaking. Hugs & prayers.
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