I helped my cousin move into his new apartment this weekend. His brother was also there to help him move. I have not seen him in about two years and the first thing he says to me is - Wow look how chunky you got. Lovely. That made me feel wonderful. Since my cousin was moving right around the corner from me - I told his brother to stop by my house to see it - he has never been to my house - so he was looking around and notice our wedding picture and he says - see you were skinny there - what happened? you looked so good like that - another shot to the gut - now I am feeling like a big fatty - even though I am really not - but I guess you can really notice the 17 pounds I have gained.
Right now I am 140 pounds - my new goal is to be 135 by the time I go down to my brother's house in June - my goal weight is 130 - I know I am not big- but I want to get healthy and in shape and feel better about myself.
I go in for my baseline ultrasound tomorrow to start IUI # 3 - I really hope this is it for us - because I am official so sick of going to the RE - I just want to be pregnant already - this is our 21st month of TTC. So depressing.
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