Identifying my problem

I know why I am so obsessed with having my baby names set. It is because it is the only thing I can control.

Control is a big issue for me.

When my mother passes away - anything that I could control I did - like how clean the house was and things like that. It is a coping mechanism.

I am doing it now too because I have no control over my fate of having a family.

In some ways I also feel if we have the names in place then maybe just maybe that will mean we are ready for a child and god will bless me with one.

I am a people pleaser so I want everyone to like the name I pick.